Can I Please Have a "Do Over?"
I blew it this weekend.
I really blew it. What else is
there to say? I was selfish, bitter, and
angry. I had choices to make and many of
those did not bring love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.
In fact, I could see the stink in our home rising and the peace
fleeing.
There really wasn’t a remarkable “event.” There wasn’t any “defining moment.” The kids and I just all seemed to be grouchy,
irritable and argumentative. And I
didn’t find a consistent way to stop the cycle.
So, now I sit here and wonder what I would do differently
if I could go back and get a “do over?” (Have
you ever been there? Wishing for a “do
over”?)
I think I would pull out our Bible and talk to the boys
about their behavior. I would have us
work on a verse together. I would pull
out all the stuff in the closet so I could get to the Play-Dough. I would build a tent for them. I’m still not sure what I would do
differently with Zoe - she is definitely terrible two’s! But, maybe I would sit with her in her room
and read more books. I would turn the
music up and dance with her more. And
with all three I would still keep my voice low.
I don’t want to live in regrets, but I do want to be
prepared for the next time I face a similar weekend. Thinking through what I did, and what I will
do next time, helps me be prepared. Next
time (and I’m pretty sure there will
be a next time), I’ll stop with the kids and pray - maybe that is the first
step in how to “live by the Spirit” – to putting Galatians 5 in action.
***
Lord, I have been
discouraged about the weekend. The peace
fled from our home. And I did nothing to
bring it back. I let frustration set in. I did hear You… I did keep my voice low… I did have many peaceful responses, but what
I lacked was perseverance when the battles kept raging. I see it so clearly now, Lord! You prepared me for this – for the time when
the storms would get greater. I just
didn’t see it until now. I did do well,
but now I must persevere. Thank you for
opening my eyes and giving me hope!
***
My Child, I love your excitement when you
see and hear Me. I love how you are
truly seeking Me. Do you realize you
avoided Me yesterday? I want you to see
you never need to avoid Me. I will never
condemn you. I will never harm you. If you will turn to Me, I will always redeem
and restore. Remember this, for the
enemy will try to convince you otherwise.
Dig into scripture with Me, and I will
reveal even more mysteries. Apply what I
reveal to you. Today think about living
in the Spirit rather than in the flesh.
For if you live in the Spirit, you will be ruled by the Spirit. You will not set fleshly expectations. Instead, you will set heavenly ones. Remember, I am with you today. And, My will shall be done.
Your Author
***
I want to thank you for walking
through life with me. There are about
sixty of you who extend grace and encouragement to me weekly. I don’t know what the future holds for any of
us, but I thank God every time I think of you, for joining us together for such
a time as this.
I pray you were able to look more
closely at the fruits of the Spirit. We
will actually be offering an in-depth Bible study on Thursday mornings from
9-11 a.m. starting January 10 if you want to really dig in.
As you can see from my life
story, I’m still working on living in freedom in Christ. I will until the day Jesus takes me home to
heaven with Him. But until then, I’ll
work it out. I’ll seek and look. And, I pray you will too. Let’s break down the next passage God put on
my heart from 1 Peter 3:6-11.
“ His divine power has given us everything we need for
a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and
goodness. Through these he has given us his very great and
precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine
nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.”
What has God given us by His own
divine power?
And through these (everything we
need for a godly life through our knowledge of Him) what has He given us?
And why has He given us these
promises?
What do you think it means to
participate in the divine nature?
What corruption in this world do
you want to escape?
“For this
very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness,
knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control,
perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness,
mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you
possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being
ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
But whoever does not have them is nearsighted and blind, forgetting that
they have been cleansed from their past sins.”
Because God has given us the opportunity to participate in
His divine nature, we should be moved to make every effort to grow. Read the list again. Why do you think they are in the order given?
What do you receive if you possess them increasingly throughout
your life?
What happens if you do not?
“ Therefore,
my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and
election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble, and
you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior
Jesus Christ.”
With God’s gift of walking in His divine nature, and our
effort to continually grow in increasing measure, what can happen?
Can you look back at your life and see times of living in
freedom and victory and times of stumbling over sin? How was your walk with Jesus during these
times? What is the difference?
It is hard for my brain to comprehend, but God tells us we
can live in victory and freedom every
day. He has given us everything we need. We just have to embrace it. We have to choose it. We have to walk it.
It sounds so simple, but it is hard. I know.
In fact, I’ll share some of my personal hardships as we move into
2013. But, for now, read through the
Galatians 5 passage and the 1 Peter 3 passage again and gage where you are in
your walk with Jesus. Where are
you? Where do you want to be? Now write out 1 to 3 steps you are going to
take this week. Put them somewhere you
can see them. And, commit them to God.
thank you again for sharing, Holly!
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